Peter Andre has revealed that he hasn’t had a birthday party in 10 years since the death of his beloved brother Andrew.
Andrew passed away in 2012 aged 54 after a brave battle with kidney cancer, leaving his younger brother Pete and family devastated.
In a candid interview, the singer, 50, talked about how he spiraled into a dark depression and couldn’t bring himself to think about celebrating his birthday every year.
He said: „When I lost my brother, I was in a very dark place. You go in mourning. Although you may experience the same symptoms, it is not the same as anxiety and depression.
Pete’s wife Emily had organized a 40th birthday party at Brown’s Bar & Brasserie in Covent Garden the year after Andrew’s death, but said Pete 'broke down and disappeared’ at the bash.
Since then he avoided throwing big parties on his birthday.
For his 50th birthday in February, Pete jetted off on a lavish trip to Dubai with his family to make some incredible memories with a stay at Anantara World Islands Resort.
Peter revealed in his post OK! column He prefers to celebrate 'pit pit’ throughout the year instead of holding a big gathering.
He wrote: 'I will be in Dubai with the whole family. I think it’s a birthday celebration. I mean, I don’t turn 50 until the end of the month, so I’m getting there early – lol.
I’ve always been a little apprehensive about turning 50.
’Tis better to focus on 30 than on 50! It sounds old but it really isn’t. I feel so young. I train, I love food, I love life.’
Last December, Pete reflected on the loss of his sibling.
’It’s almost heartbreaking to know that it’s been a whole decade. We will definitely be with him on this sad anniversary,’ Pete told New! magazine.
’It’s always going to be a tough time and it’s never going to be easy.
’Milestones like this are a time of reflection and a very emotional time for us as a family. It makes Christmas a bittersweet time.’
Andrew was diagnosed with kidney cancer in February 2012 and underwent months of chemotherapy before tragically dying in December of the same year.
Peter postponed his tour to spend time with his brother, the entire family at his bedside.