Andrew Jenkins has revealed he talks to family pictures at night while filming The Traitors.
The Welsh insurance broker, 45, revealed the grueling 'mental and physical' challenge he faced competing in the nail-biting hit BBC show after he was recruited as a traitor mid-competition.
During a candid chat, she said: 'I come back at night and talk to my family's picture.
My psychologist comes to my room every couple of days – she is amazing. I was like, 'Does it make me drool? I talk to my photos!''
But she's like, „No, you're getting off your chest, you're getting it out, so you better do it.”
He said: 'So I was grounded, remember why I was there.'
Andrew – who made the final five alongside winner Harry, Joss, Molly and Evie – was not ashamed to admit he 'struggled' to be a cheater.
As an athlete – and self-confessed fitness fanatic – he loved competition but was used to a strong moral code.
'As a sportsman I was competitive, but knowing that I was playing a game, I still struggled to go from being a believer to a traitor.
'Blaming people, not telling the truth…it was hard. I knew what the game was when I signed up, but it was brutal.
He added: Being an honest person, I enjoyed being a believer and I like to catch evil people.
Admitting the show was a 'draining game' mentally and physically: 'I fought like a traitor.
'It's so intense when you're there, you have to switch off when you go back to your room or you'll wear yourself out.
'At the end I was so tired, you can't sleep, so you're emotional.'
Andrew admitted that he thought being a qualified linguistics coach would be an advantage for him because he thought he was 'very good at reading people's body language'.
However, the insurance broker admitted that the game is a completely different level and there is no certainty once the match is over.
He praised host Claudia Winkleman and said he wouldn't imagine anyone else in the role and that he was an amazing man behind the scenes.
But she didn't give anything away. She keeps a straight face. If it was me I'd have to get involved.'
When asked if he suffered any injuries during the challenges on the show, he chuckled: 'Other than psychological? No actual physical injury.'
The 45-year-old insurance broker from Talbot Green recalled the moment he was eliminated in the final: 'I knew it was coming and I wasn't going to stand there and argue.
'I knew my days were numbered and I knew Jazz was doubting me anyway. Molly doubted me, she was really affected by Harry.
He called both Paul and Harry 'fantastic traitors and men', but he thought Harry did better in the end. He won overall.
'Paul is good too, he's a good actor, I fell for it!,' he admitted.
The Traitors star eventually revealed that they all got to watch the finale together, calling it a very emotional watch.
Of the show's eventual winner, she said: 'Harry was number one and he really deserved it.'
'He played well and I have no hard feelings.'
He added of Molly and Harry: 'I was like Dad. I felt like they were my little children.'
The reality TV star admitted to sending messages to some of the contestants, including friends and relatives, expressing their disdain for her after the show.
'Its A game where they don't actually murder people, don't feel bad about it. Get lost in the fog.'
In the end, Andrew said he liked participating in the competition.
'The show was amazing, there was a lot of support.'
Meanwhile, final five runner-up Evie Morrison said: 'I think if you keep your head down and don't get involved in drama, you can be a good believer and win.'
The vet nurse, 29, added: 'You have to be suspicious but not overly so. You have to be loud but not too loud.'
The Scottish star admitted to keeping her emotions in check throughout the show, but admitted there was a challenging moment at the end.
'When Jazz left I felt so guilty, I was overwhelmed by the emotion. I was able to get through the entire season without that emotion, so I felt really bad about it. There were no women at that time.
He also revealed that he sometimes 'dreamed about people' in the series: 'After we stopped filming, I was always thinking about it and dreaming about it.'
Evie added: 'We spent too much time with these people and then we were done.
'We couldn't contact anyone we couldn't meet. It was very difficult to go back to your families. It was wild.'
'It's very difficult trying to change people's minds when nobody wants to talk to you,' the star explained in the most demanding bits of the BBC show.
He added that the length of a day-long shoot can be very testing as sometimes you end up 'shooting for 16 hours'.
The vet admits that it doesn't surprise Paul that he's a traitor because he thinks he's 'definitely' one of them.
Evie said of Harry's win: 'At the end of the day Harry was a good boy and played really well.
You can't be mad because I don't want people to be upset if I'm in that position. We're playing so no, I'll give him the win. He was very good.'
Contrary to the twists, drama and backstabbing people see on screen – the Scottish star said of the show that 'everyone knows it's a game and nobody takes things personally'.
The Scottish reality star added that Molly and Harry are on fine terms despite rumors of a feud.
'Everyone has been beautiful. There are no bad things. I think everyone loved the season, loved the drama, loved the twists,” he said.
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